the worms is coming out

days later, i was back at home, still thinking about the trip in the country and trying to figure out where i had been to. i lost diary on the way back. i think i left it on one of the tables in the airport cafe. i had lots of things to carry and i must have forgotten to take the notebook with me. i didn't notice when i arrived at home. it was a pity, for i kept entrance tickets and any i randomly picked from the street in the diary. i was so angry with myself for losing such an important log to the journey. i searched in my backpack and only found the pebble from Prague. it's the only thing that reminds of the city and that morning. i did remember exactly where i picked the pebble, but my description of the day were kept in the diary and the diary is gone.
i am completely forgetful of things when i returned home. it was just like a match that has been extinguished. all of a sudden, the light went off and my memory seems to flee from me. it is also terrible that the dream i had during that afternoon's sleep came back to me so often. so often is the dream that it occupies all my mind. the worm's outline is especially in my mind. no sometimes it seems to appear in my eyes. from my fleecing memory, i can still remember that just recently, hmm... five minutes ago, when i wash my face. i used my hands to splash my face. just as i open my eyes, i seem to see a worm's tail disappearing from my eyelid. no, i think it's inside my eyelid. shockingly, i turn around my eye balls, trying to feel any discomfort in my eyes, but there seems to be nothing. i feel no pain in them.
perhaps that worm is coming out from the cage from my head. it is a terrible thought to think of the possibility that there is a worm roaming in my brain. and that vicious worm is fed on my memories. i am throwing up, hoping to drive the worm out of it.

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the worms in my head

what a lovely morning that i love. the sun is not as hot as in the summer, and not so cold as in the winter. it is what i called a vacation sunshine. bathing in the sunshine brings me back to Prague, where i spent two weeks traveling around some cities. i was in the Old Town Square, breathing the Prague air and a little coldness into my lungs. the dove were just flying by and the street cleaners were beginning to clean up the street. the pebble paved roads are easy to be walked on. and they always gave me a sense walking into the ancient times. i picked up a pebble and shoved it into my pocket. i specially chose the pebble it was located right before the Franz Kafka Museum on the corner of the square. i sensed the weight of the pebble in my pcoket and i felt this morning has become even more precious because of the pebble. the connection among me, the pebble, Prague, and Kafka has made me remember the morning.
i walked off back to the apartment i rented for the two weeks' visit. it was a small but really functional unit. i brushed my teeth and drew the curtain, putting the pebble over my head closet. i got too early, and it was time for a makeup sleep.
i slept tightly, curled up in the bed. the wind blew open the door, i got up to close it. as i turned,strangely, i noticed that the pebble had gone. i went searching for it and looked all over, but only in vain. i wanted to give and go back to sleep. after all the pebble wouldn't flee away, it doesn't have feet. i lied down, yawning and stretched my legs. as i prepared to close my eyes, i noticed that the pebble was atop the closet how strange? i didn't notice. but even more stranger was that it began to move. just like a transformer robot, the pebble stretched out its legs and tail! i narrowed my eyes and wonder what the pebble would become. was it a worm? but suddenly it jumped in the air and hit my head.
i woke up in sweat. it was a dream, but a realistic one. i turned around the see the pebble in full suspension. but there it was, it was right there. i grabbed the pebble and threw it into my backpack. i shouted at it and then later, went to sleep.

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the latest Mac OX is coming out ...

i believe everyone, definitely those Mac manias, has noticed the homepage of apple.com. it says "add a new Mac to your Mac", and there is a countdown counter below. the big day is next friday. hmm, let's get a Mac.

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marie antoinette

i went to see the movie Marie Antoinette played by Kisten Dunst. this movie portrays the life of the the French queen of Louis the 16th.
what i think about the movie? i think this movie is really entertaining. ha ha ... to say the movie is only entertaining means it's not that worthy of movie ticket fees. in Taiwan, this movie can be listed in the rosters of second-round movies, when seeing two movies with the price of a latte. however, to do the movie justice, i would say that sofia coppola has achieved something great. the scenes are great, all shot in Versaille and Paris. the costumes are also spectacular. the gowns, the hairdos, i think this movie has paid a perfect attention to every detail except the mischief pair of Converse sneakers! yes, it is right there, when Marie is sick of the boredom in the Versailles and decides to spend fortune on luxuries. the pair of bluish Converse sit comfortably, as if it's forgotten, before a feet stool. it appears for two seconds or so, but i think that's hilarious enough. i laughed in the theater, and everybody looked at me for this impolite laugh. well, i think they didn't see it.
movie manias go to this movie cannot but notice the modern rock soundtrack of the movie. i think coppola has intentionally dubbed the movie with rock music. since for a such young girl like marie, she would only care for rock music. however, it is obvious to notice marie's distaste to courtesy and manners. she alway displays her true emotions, her playfulness, and her innocence. her gay temperament has affected people around her. her life at the Petite Trianon has showed her desire for peace and simple life, and maybe a little love affair.
the encounter with a Swedish military officer, Count Ferson, represents the end to marie's happy life. her childlike innocence has gone with this handsome man to america. thus, sad days come as the finance of france has weakened because of war. marie was often criticized by the people for her extravagant life, one rumor has it that when marie hears that people have not bread to eat, marie replies "let them eat cakes!" this demonstrates the image of marie in the hearts of people of france.
as we might have known, the story ends up with Marie being beheaded. but the movie does not show the scene. i was quite surprised to see that, as i thought the movie talks about the life of marie antoinette and how is it possible to skip the final days of her life? maybe coppola has run out of budget. i did remember the scene when marie left the Versaille. she once asked her husband to watch the sunrise with her. but he didn't. for now, they would never have the second chance to watch the sunrise. when they left the Versaille, the story also ends. i was surprised by marie's insistence in staying with Louis the 16th. from the luxirious life showed in the movie, i thought that she would run away fast with her friends. however, it is not so. her courage and courtesy has impressed me. as i look into the documents of marie antoinetter, she seemed to be a very good example of royal elegance.
the movie is good, but from the beinning to the end, i can't get what the director is trying to say. i now know the story of marie antoinette, but what's the point of making a movie that has a neutral stance? if not for the costumes and music, the movie is not special, but if not for the theme of marie antoinette, the film is just a rock MV. maybe i will try seeing coppola's another film lost in translation.

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i am sad

i feel sad,
cause i couldn't save a little blind kitten.
he has be abandoned in the wild.
to be eaten, to be poked at.

i feel sad,
for my weakness in heart.
for i should have left him when i heard him meowing.
he should have to be deserted by his damned owner.

i feel sad,
cause no one want to take him.
it become clear to me that
being cruel is sometimes the best plan.
turning away your eyes is always easier to accept the responsibility.

i feel sad,
for i have the feeling that
saving a stray cat with mercy
is one stupid thing.

i feel sad,
cause i can't keep this blind cat.
i have no choice but to abandon him again.
leave in the cold, unseen world.

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it's autumn, no?

last night it was raining.
this morning it is windy.
i set my foot to the market,
want to buy some veggie
people wear jacket
and i ask myself why i am so quirky?
cause i don't think it's chilly.
and I'm even sweaty.

i sat at a breakfast diner,
ordered some hot buns from a steamer.
i rolled a cigarette and took out my lighter.
the lighter gave out a fainted fire
my breathed in the unbearable smoke, quicker
than i used to before.
this made me wonder.
i sense the wind is harsher
and the sky is dimmer
i ask the one in my inner
is it autumn yet?

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i don't know what to do

hey, you, what are you doing?
actually, i have no idea what i was doing in this afternoon.
i have no case to report, no translation to do, well, it's a very easy afternoon. and believe me, i don't feel guilty of doing nothing. what happen to me? i want to be actively in work, but since this is not what i had thought. everyone says if you had nothing to do, just msn or hang around. but i know they might rat on you. so maybe it's better to keep on pretending. seems nobody cares. that's pathetic.
it's raining, how sad. what a gloomy friday to live.

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the loneliness among people

what is the beauty of being alone?
for my current situation, i think the beautiful point about being alone is do anything i want, without any obligation and duties. going to lunch alone, hanging in the night market alone, traveling alone and always taking photos without myself. that's the beauty of loneliness. i have cats but i can't talk to them. how is that possible to think that cats (or pets) can be one's companions after thinking that these cats might just eat your corpse if you had a sudden death. you flesh is their companion, the best canned food they can find.
do i resent being alone? no, it's been a while that i enjoy the total solitude, to myself only, and accept it. drinking coffee alone in the cafe and enjoy the happiness of being neglected, enjoy the crowd, and imagine the scent of a pretty woman that has arousing legs. that's the essence of being alone. living alone is not that you hate others or vice versa, it's an attitude inside you.

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what does it take to be a good translator?

i love doing translation work, and i have studied in this field for almost a decade. and sometimes i still don't think my learning is sufficient for me to be a worthy translator. while i am doing my translation job in the company, i keep thinking are there other possibilities that i can refine my translation skills? the answer might be fuzzy, since the only way i can think of is practice. and practice makes perfect, isn't it? no so, after i reflect all these years in the field.
what does it take to be a good translator? personality does matter.and the most important thing is not to consider myself as a translator, rather i should pretend as a students in the university of society. yes, learning is the key to be a better translator, but keep learning is what it takes to be good at playing with words.

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颱風過後

颱風肆虐，留下一地屍體
許多樹木不堪強風攻擊，連根的失去土地的保護
倒在路旁奄奄一息，等待人類的救援
可是倒地的樹木就像發生車禍的人類，沒有人當作一回事，沒有人緊急處理
因為肇事者已經逃逸
上班尖峰的時刻，汽機車照樣呼嘯而過，行人繞道而行
而清潔隊員則在鄰近的仁愛路上修剪行道樹
切割樟樹已吹斷落地的屍體
風不吹，樹木沈靜不語
這個星期一的早晨很悲傷
我為樹木哀悼！！

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再聽聽樹在說啥？

看完夏曼‧藍波安的《航海家的臉》，我似乎開始對草啊、樹的有更多的關注。
強颱即將來臨，剛剛走在辦公大樓第十四層往下聽著樟樹在起鬨。
因為中午去買午餐時，看到副總統官邸周圍的警察說：有線報說這裡有爆裂物。
一邊買著午餐一邊看著警察神色焦急的搜查停在周圍的汽車，將臉貼在車窗上，好似小偷。
買回午餐，買樓下看發現有更多警察和保安人員在四周圍走動，真是放假前的好戲。
讓我看的不亦樂乎！

樟樹被風吹拂，或許在嘲笑這些人，根本只是虛驚一場。
他們在笑著，叫著看著這些警察，希望颱風大一點把官邸吹倒，那就更有好戲看囉！

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風在說話

颱風又要來

早上在上班的路上，聽見仁愛路上的樟樹跟我說話
叫我打起精神來，不要被生活的的無奈壓倒
雖然生命是毫無意義的，可是只要還活著就要好好讓自己過著有異議的日子
樟樹這樣跟我講
無情的大風把他的頭髮吹亂了
也吹的他彎下腰來
希望颱風過後還可以看過他
聽他說的話

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科學新知

最近科機網站紛紛報導有關 space tether 的新聞，關心一下科學的進程吧。

clipped from sa.ylib.com 太空飛行纜索 應用基本物理定律產生的動力， 乘著纜索即可在太空飛行， 火箭推進將不再是唯一的選擇。

超喜歡街頭霸王的音樂
真希望我也可以去看這場西遊記


歌劇《西遊記》曼徹斯特國際藝術節上大受好評
http://big5.china.com.cn/culture/txt/2007-07/15/content_8527633.htm

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四天連假

中秋節的四天連假
感覺應該是可以好好休息的
可是沒想到，似乎事情也是很多的
首先要擦地拖地，這可能只會耗去一個小時
可是當你有兩隻貓拼命追著掃把和拖把跑的時候，這就很累了
有時候，地板還沒乾，貓咪衝過來攻擊拖把
結果滑倒，撞翻了自己的水盆和飼料盆，反而又得再重新掃
這樣子掃地其實很累呀

然後，還要去買菜買水果
上網下載影片，看書，寫東西，發呆，聊天
更煩的是還有兼差翻譯稿和更新兼差的履歷
一大堆事情，其實四天的假期並不多
說不訂有些人玩了四天，說不定比上班的時候還累
所以呀，到底為啥要放假呢?

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it's raining again!

why oh why?
it's raining again in taipei.
i think tiapei is totallu unaware of the coming long holidays, right?
people have to leave taipei for home to celebrate the holidays.
i think tiapei should be more considerate for its people.
or is it raining because people have to leave?
during the holidays, there weren't be so many people
maybe taipei is crying for the fact that it will be deserted.
it is nothing but a place of desires and money
no on calls it home.
well, well, taipei, taipei.
happy mid-autumn festival,

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福利比一比

last night, i was chatting with some former colleagues.
and fortunately, we were all out of the previous company and have found new jobs.
well, when we were still in the previous company, we were talking about the bad things.
things like working extra hours and dick-head managers are frequent.
but now we talk about the good things about each one's company.
we talk about the welfare of each one's company.
this seems to be a positive msn conversation, but i think everyone is try to find out whose is better.
but personally i would like talk about other things.
haha

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昭告天下

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clipped from www.ntl.gov.tw ::: 　 ｜ 主委重要言論｜ 文化活動重要訊息｜ 圖書館界大事｜ 　 您現在的位置：每日重要訊息＞文化活動重要訊息 :::文化活動重要訊息 標　　　　　題： 2007青年文學創作數位化作品購藏公開徵集 公　告　時　間： 2007.9.11 想提升文學創作作品的能見度嗎？2007青年文學創作作品公開徵集活動即日起開跑了。 為培育發掘青年文學創作人才，豐富中文電子書蒐集來源，國立臺中圖書館將以公開徵集評選方式，收錄具一定水準之青年文學創作作品，以原創電子書形式或轉製為電子書，納為國立臺中圖書館之電子書館藏，提供給全國民眾線上閱覽。 此次公開徵集之作品類別有新詩、散文、短篇小說、報導文學，並接受已發表於網路、部落格（blog）之文學創作參加徵選，歡迎18至35歲之有志青年踴躍參與。徵集簡章及報名表請逕自國立臺中圖書館網站下載：http://www.ntl.gov.tw或至國立臺中圖書館服務台索取。報名收件日期即日起至96年10月31日止，以郵戳為憑，逾期不受理。 初次建檔日期：2007.9.11 最後修正日期：2007.9.11 2007青年文學創作數位化作品購藏公開徵集簡章(PDF格式) 2007青年文學創作數位化作品購藏公開徵集簡章(Word格式)

次級房貸

最近的新名詞：次級房貸。到底是什麼意思？查了一下，擷取一點，這各部落課寫的詳細檢說在
http://greenhornfinancefootnote.blogspot.com/2007/08/subprime-mortgage-mess.html
雖然我還是不懂 XD!!

clipped from greenhornfinancefootnote.blogspot.com 談美國次級房貸問題(Subprime Mortgage Mess) 對於FICO信用分數達620分以上，有適足文件證明收入和資產的貸款者，他們的房貸稱做Prime mortgage。他們違約風險很低。銀行常將這種貸款賣給美國政府支持的機構，像Fannie Mae或是Freddie Mac。這種房屋貸款是最普遍的，約佔2006年美國房貸總額的37%。 對於FICO信用分數達620分以上，而沒有適足文件證明收入和資產的貸款者，他們的貸款叫Alt-A 貸款。銀行仍願意承作，並在次級市場賣出。 至於信用不佳，或背負沉重貸款的借款者，他們的貸款常由專門的房貸出借公司承作。這些貸款，就叫作次級房貸(Subprime mortgages)。像這次因次級房貸問題，申請破產保護的New Century Financial公司，就是一家以此為主力業務的公司。此類貸款利率，常比Prime mortgage高至少2到3%。這些公司發行這種貸款後，一樣將許多此類貸款包裝起來，然後在次級市場售出，賺取費用。

蘭嶼之行七

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2007.8.29
早上八點的環島，晒傷坐票
一早起來先大略收拾好行李，準備最後一次的環島。早上太陽還可以接受，還有著涼風，摩托車以大約時速五十公里的速度跑在環島公路上，不時的聞到迎面而來的大自然氣息，我想這是我第一次這麼喜歡騎摩托車。一面觀看著景色，一面回想著自己前幾天在這裡做了什麼，留下何種回憶等等，想不到時間過的這麼快，六天的旅程今天就要結束了。
騎到五孔洞時，停了下來。我們還沒來過這裡，這裡有座祈禱會堂，在其中一個孔中樹立起一個大紅十字架。這裡的氣氛滿詭異的，我想到了晚上應該會有另一種更不依樣的氣氛。過了朗島村的避風港，發現還沒來這裡游泳，真令我失望。那天晚上在亞比亞聊天的時候，那位朋友告訴我這裡的海灣有很多比基尼女郎，哈哈，說不定下次在旺季的時候來玩，說不定可以一飽眼福。還要帶蛙鏡、呼吸管，像那群在八帶彎嬉戲的小孩那樣，在水底觀察一下都市人美麗的軀體。啊，留待下次吧。九點到了美亞美早餐，又來吃培根捲。老闆說今天沒有囉，厚片賣完了。哇，真沒口福，點了其他的東西，心裡想下次再來吃他個過癮吧！早餐完畢後又到了野銀村，回想那天上午悠閒的在涼亭納涼，也發現這裡的回憶滿多的。途經野銀商號跟施爸爸、施媽媽告別，還說下次會再來的。下次要來參加飛魚祭呢！
雖然時間有點趕，我們還是在野銀村外的冷泉停了一下。跟八代灣的冷泉一樣，這也是淡水湧出累積而成，不一樣的是這裡有蘭嶼唯一的白沙，而且離海岸還有一段距離，在夏夜時一群人來這裡泡水、聊天，相信是種享受，心裡又想下次再來時，一定要來泡泡！沒時間了，沒泡冷泉，趕緊騎回民宿。路過永興農莊，覺得四面碑上的字還滿有趣的，趕緊拍了下來，就要繼續騎。路經龍頭岩、天池入口、青青草原，以及數不盡的點滴回憶和感覺，真不敢相信待會就要搭飛機回台灣了。
十點回到民宿，趕緊背起行李，因為還要去拿四季春的辣椒呢！朋友在樓下買一些紀念品，我則買了一本《雅美族歷史》，然後便騎上車趕往四季春。到了四季春，認識我的老闆不在，就向在店裡的人說明我要來拿辣椒。店裡一位男的從店面後拿了一缸辣椒出來，開始往我的水壺裝辣椒。我本來說只要一半就好了，他竟然說「沒關係，就裝滿吧。」我又問他這是怎麼作的，他說是用磨碎的小辣椒、米酒、鹽作成的。他還說還有更辣的，不敢拿出來給客人吃。哈，我倒滿想嘗試的噎。這段裝辣椒插曲，讓我了解蘭嶼人的大方、熱情，真希望我可以把這種精神帶到台灣。但往往這是不太可能的，這也讓我稍微失望了。飛奔到機場去畫位，已經十點半了。五十分便要開始登機，心中真是焦急。一到櫃台，發現台東劇團在畫位，啊，更讓我焦急，因為行李都還在民宿呢！等了七分鐘左右，很快的畫位又衝回民宿。告別民宿，又在衝回機場，似乎還沒機會好好看機場一眼，就準備登機了。
上午十一點的飛機，坐票
從台東富岡漁港坐船來蘭嶼要三個小時多，但搭飛機回去只要半小時。德安航空十九人座的小飛機要在一個月前訂位，這也增加了困難性。因為與台東劇團同機，所以整個機艙吵的要命！起飛後，從機窗又看到了另一面的蘭嶼。清澈蔚藍的海岸，離我愈來愈遠，這場被「海水包圍的藍色美夢」隨著半小時的飛行，迅速抽離我的人生。突然，機艙裡四處冒出濃煙！到底怎麼了？大家似乎都還很鎮定，仔細一看，原來是冷氣呀。哈哈，真好玩，好像在拍戲。這場短暫的飛行，竟然也因這場冒煙記而趣味橫生。
下午五點三十的火車，坐票
到了台東火車站，只有下午五點半的自強號有座位。訂了票後，還有五小時要打發呢！坐公車到了台東市先去吃了好吃的黃氏涼麵。後來去找個有冷氣的地方消磨下午，到了市立圖書館的閱覽室，看了許多平時不太看的雜誌。接著又去由台東舊火車站改裝成的鐵道藝術村，發現這裡好像是個空城，什麼都沒有。後來一問旅遊資訊中心的人，才知道這裡要有活動才會比較熱鬧。平常，就像個流浪漢的集中營。我還看到他們在理頭髮咧！本以為很難熬的五小時很快就過去，買完池上便當後反而差一點來不及！坐上車後，腦中滿是蘭嶼的回憶，也在想一定要再來一次。
晚上十點四十五分的計程車，坐票
坐計程車到家已經十一點了。一開電腦，就發現有工作等著我。還有一些帳單，明天要去接兩隻貓貓，還有其他事要做。哎，一回到台灣就是這樣。洗完澡，雖然不累，卻也很快的就睡著了。不知道那晚是不是做了被「海水包圍的藍色美夢」！不論怎樣，我帶著滿滿的蘭嶼回憶回到台灣，希望下次去的時候，蘭嶼還是可以保持這麼純樸的自然，而個性質爽的達悟人可以繼續維持那種與大自然和諧共處的生活方式。